MYOB

We seem to have moved on from, "when are you due?"/"are you pregnant?" to "when are you going to have another one?". My first answer to this is, "it's not your business", but since that's rude to say (insert eye roll for the irony) let me spell it out for you...we're not going to. 

Why is the house a trainwreck? Why can't we just go to the store for the reason we went to store? Why can't we go out to eat without having to step outside with a screaming child? Why can't we just be alone for a bit? Because we have a toddler. 

Good for you if you have the patience to have more than one - we don't. You have probably secured a place in heaven for yourself.

Maybe it's because we're both first borns, but having constant unfinished projects laying around drives us nuts. I admire the daycare workers and school teachers because I don't know how they do it all day every day. I tried it for five years; it wasn't for me.  I feel like a failure on weekends and my days off because I get so frustrated with our daughter and need multiple mental breaks. I tell myself I should be able to handle this better and I'm actually a chicken because I went back to work and couldn't handle being a stay at home mom.  She's a typical toddler and well behaved the majority of the time, too!

Did I ever think I'd just have one? Of course not. I thought I'd have two or three, really.  At the end of college, when I first started to believe I'd be single forever, I was going to adopt five different kids from different backgrounds to ensure they grew up with love and respect for other cultures and races. Those were my idealist days.

It's no secret that I've dealt with anxiety in the past, that I have kidney issues (yes, I have a tumor, but it's benign), and a cyst on one of my fallopian tubes, or that I'm two weeks away from my 38th birthday (not exactly bounding with energy anymore). It's also not widely advertised that LP wasn't planned, but if you can do math, you can figure it out.  We also have outgrown our home, and desperately need to move, but can't at the moment.

That being said, if we had another surprise we'd be happy.  We wouldn't trade our girl for anything in the world.  She is awesome beyond words, and she'd likely love being a big sister. But that's not our plan, and I would greatly appreciate it if you would stop asking.