It's June. I'm dreaming of a beach vacation or even a lakehouse trip. The year is half over and I had no idea it had been so long since I made an entry. I have been journaling a lot more, though, and it's rare I both blog and journal at the same time. Generally, I keep petty and more personal stuff to my journals. Although I can't speak as freely as I'm thinking with this topic in a blog, this post is something that I think is relatable for most adults, and most definitely curators of any kind.
Lately, it's been very draining and stressful to always be needed. It's not even been caused by my child or my husband, although, out of everyone they get the most mind. It seems as though the idea of letting things "just be" is falling by the wayside. People don't let each other do things their own way. Everybody has something to say about how else something could or should be done. The reason why is not important either. We all think we know better than someone else. It could be that it's always been done that way so why change it - the old if-it-ain't-broke-don't-fix-it way of thinking. It could be because you actually did it one way and it didn't work, which certainly carries more weight, but still not be the best option for someone else. Either way, someone always has to offer their two cents.
Idea sharing is entirely different. Brainstorming is awesome and happy accidents turn out to be some of the best-unmade plans ever. BUT sometimes you just need to leave people alone to do their own thing. I'm sort of talking about personal space and alone time, but more directing my thoughts toward the constant barrage of comments people make either to hear themselves talk or to pester you about something. They probably don't think they're being annoying or even causing you physical angst, but that also means they need to practice self-awareness - another trait that is severely lacking in today's average human.
Am I guilty of these things, too? Of course. I waste time and energy judging my next-door neighbors when I should focus on everything inside the walls of our home and making it as pleasant as possible for us to live here while we have to. At work, I need to focus on balancing the types of programs I provide and the places where I schedule them rather than getting frustrated with the "squeaky wheels" who are causing me high anxiety and tummy issues.
If it's possible to suffer burnout from the way society is trending these days, I'd say that's what is happening with me. Seeing Broadway plays, like "Kinky Boots" or watching movies like, "The Princess and the Frog" and "Ponyo", where accepting everyone for who they are, provide cultural reminders that there is still hope for humanity. No wonder I'm dreaming of a vacation - I need to retreat and refresh my mind and my soul.
