We are now in week seven of this crazy new life. I have since become a grumpy, (more) judgy, germaphobe compared to my old self.
I do think that part of my mental state is what it is because we are already cramped in this condo. If we had a real yard and more square footage to spread out in, I think I'd lose my cool less and likely be feel more relaxed. That's how I feel when I have visited my parents at least, and their house is almost three times the size of where we live.
After a week-long spring break, we're back to virtual classroom learning. Thankfully, there are only a few weeks left of school. The other night I registered her for summer camps, assuming they'll take place. Of course, now with the extended stay at home order, I wonder if they'll happen at all. If not, this is going to be a very long summer.
When my husband got home from work today I just broke down and cried. Now I'm having a glass of wine. So many things and people needed my attention today, I feel like I've been playing an all day game of Twister and it's exhausting.
The longer this stay at home, live with all these restrictions goes on, the less I see a silver lining. Yes, I'm depressed and deal with anxiety regularly; however, I also am not able to imagine when or how things will go back to what they used to be. Honestly, I don't think they'll ever be exactly how they used to. Part of me is okay with that, but the not knowing what to expect at all is what's making me crazy. Practicing yoga - staying in the present moment - and getting enough exercise (which is not happening) will help, I know. Thankfully, I am able to do zoom yoga through work once a week. It's the only program I have going right now. Planning a completely virtual summer reading program for the library is not easy since we supply everything that's needed for patrons, but I think it will all work out somehow.
Changing how our brains work that is the hardest part of all of this. If anyone has any suggestions on how to balance the demands this is making on so many of us, please share. I'm sure we can all use a different perspective. In the meantime, cheers!
Monday, April 27, 2020
Sunday, April 5, 2020
Sunday Evening Post
It's hard to believe we are entering week four of this surreal life. The learning from home is going pretty well. Our girl loves that she gets to use the computer all the time, but sometimes her dad and I have scanning issues, like remembering to scan and submit her assignments. There has only been one day so far that I felt that there was too much work assigned.
The latest stay at home date of April 30 leaves only two weeks of the school year left before she would have her kindergarten graduation ceremony. I will be surprised if schools reopen at all this school year, and wonder if the ceremony will be rescheduled at some point. To be honest, none of us had kindergarten graduations and we were none the wiser. Maybe the same will work out for this class. The performance and ceremony for her Pre-K class were absolutely precious so we have that to look back on.
Working from home is proving to be a constant challenge for me. While it is awesome to remote into my desktop at the office, I think not having everything that I need in one place (that's also big enough to store and organize it) to do my job makes it that much harder to concentrate. Also, when I'm at my office, I don't have a person who needs constant attention or help with something. I do have an assistant who likes to chat, but she's an adult and doesn't feel it necessary to have a running commentary about life. Yes, I'm being sarcastic, obviously, but also serious.
All of that being said, the longer this goes on, the more my perspective changes (as I'm sure it does for all of us). I would never have guessed this would last as long as it has; therefore, I did not plan ahead as far as supplies go. We have not run out of toilet paper or anything like that, thankfully, but we will run out of flushable wipes and Lysol wipes before it's all over. I also wish we had a box of disposable latex gloves - one reason is that I will be dying my hair pink this week and the stuff I ordered did not come with any! The other reason is for when we have to run to the store, although I am grateful for the wipes that every store is providing at the entrances. And I love getting to see our girl grow up mentally and physically. She's an amazing little human!
The latest stay at home date of April 30 leaves only two weeks of the school year left before she would have her kindergarten graduation ceremony. I will be surprised if schools reopen at all this school year, and wonder if the ceremony will be rescheduled at some point. To be honest, none of us had kindergarten graduations and we were none the wiser. Maybe the same will work out for this class. The performance and ceremony for her Pre-K class were absolutely precious so we have that to look back on.
Working from home is proving to be a constant challenge for me. While it is awesome to remote into my desktop at the office, I think not having everything that I need in one place (that's also big enough to store and organize it) to do my job makes it that much harder to concentrate. Also, when I'm at my office, I don't have a person who needs constant attention or help with something. I do have an assistant who likes to chat, but she's an adult and doesn't feel it necessary to have a running commentary about life. Yes, I'm being sarcastic, obviously, but also serious.
All of that being said, the longer this goes on, the more my perspective changes (as I'm sure it does for all of us). I would never have guessed this would last as long as it has; therefore, I did not plan ahead as far as supplies go. We have not run out of toilet paper or anything like that, thankfully, but we will run out of flushable wipes and Lysol wipes before it's all over. I also wish we had a box of disposable latex gloves - one reason is that I will be dying my hair pink this week and the stuff I ordered did not come with any! The other reason is for when we have to run to the store, although I am grateful for the wipes that every store is providing at the entrances. And I love getting to see our girl grow up mentally and physically. She's an amazing little human!
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